I stand on the dance floor, at the edge of a group of loud drunk college people, a guy near my shoulder shouting into the ear of a girl who is drunk enough to think she's bi.. she's been eyeing me for as long as she has been able to maintain focus.. i am perfectly still while this shouting guy is bobbing up and down on his toes hard enough to make his shouts of "WHEN I GOT THE CAR.." sound like some demented yodel..
I was lonely and feeling like hiding in a crowd to "celebrate" finishing another 'short story' would help me get over my "post-not-published" jitters. I tried closing my eyes and concentrating on the dj's crap-rap but the car guy was too loud to stay motionless any longer...
I turned a little to try to edge by the 'bi' girl and get somewhere where i could just be still while the human 'atoms' vibrated around me... over by one of the posts holding up the upper balcony/VIP area i found a few square centimeters where i could set up house.. i leaned back against the simulated antique iron column put my hands over my head and arched into a stretch.. relaxing i opened my eyes and there she was.. my breath caught in my diaphram and i began a slow cycle of hiccoughs..
She was moving like an out of control dance cyborg.. not doing that stupid robot bullshit.. but her motions were so fast they were one continual blur.. and they were amazingly smooth. not like a trained dancer smooth.. but wildly out of control smooth.. i hadn't noticed her before.. wtf HAD i even looked at in this place.. there was space around her.. no one could have entered the bubble of energy she cleared around her.. i saw a guy move into her zone and his mouth moved while she vibrated in her universe.. he got closer and reached a hand out to touch her shoulder.. maybe figuring that at the speed she was moving she probably didn't notice how wonderful and hot he was...
Her hand shot out and hit his forarm like a pile driver.. his mouth shaped into a surprised grimice and i could see him mouth the word "BITCH" at her and clutching his damage shuffle off hunting for something easier to play his 3rd grade tricks on.. she rotated and spun and moved like my tongue in well.. nobody recently.. another cost to my current sleepless scribbling for 24/7...
She was soaking wet. her grey top, is that that thing i drooled over from Urban Outfitters? her movement and the sweat soaking it made it impossible to tell.. but yeah. i lusted over that particular top for weeks.. the black skin tight jeans, riding so very very low, showing quite a bit of her skin.. almost as pale as my own.. spring would probably put color on hers. mine never would tan.. only burn.. her hair soaked too, and it was running off of her face.. i could see her glisten from here.. god. look at her.. my
fetish for real noses with character tweaked me hard where i hadn't tweaked in weeks...
She was slowing now.. fast or slow song she'd kept pace.. driving the clots of cliques away from her space. now. she was .. changing dimensions and shifting back into a presence on the floor.. she stopped. i could see her gasp for breath, stand with only her feet shuffling a bit.. spent.. the exhaustion clear, her sadness at having no remaining energy clear and written on her face as though i had woven it myself.. she stared around her as though in a a fugue and that's when i saw the eyes.. fuck.. those have to be contacts.. wow..
Her face settles and she focuses hard.. searching the room.. she sees something stills a moment and then shuffles towards a group at a bar behind me.. i watch her move.. god.. she's in agony.. it shows so clearly to me.. a group of guys she passes by make some remarks to her but she hears nothing.. focused only on her goal, she shuffles on.. one of the party she's approaching, a girl in bluejeans and a sweat shirt, rises from her stool with 2 purses and a jacket in her hands..
She approaches the standing girl.. a slight smile on her lips.. and i can lipread "hey.. thanks.. ready to go" from here.. having dated a deaf guy back when i did guys had helped with my 'crowd story searches' i'd made friends with his mother.. and maintained that friendship long after i'd decided that he and all other men were just not designed to sissor with.. she takes the jacket and scrunches her face up pulling her arms around to fit the sleeves. in it she shrugs it to settle on her wet shoulders and back.. god.. she's beautiful.. her friend hands her the extra purse, turns and waves to the group at the bar.. they wave back and i see "love you girl" mouthed at the girl i've been watching..
She raises her hand weakly and gestures, a tired smile issued the two of them turn and she takes the arm of her friend who leads her toward the front exits.. as they pass the same group of males that'd mouthed their cum-on wit at her before i see one lean towards another and mouth "lezbo dykes" .. i watch as the two enter the crowd and are lost to my sight...
Amanda 2011
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