. rigoare.

rigorous in my trade craft
regimes burnt in my flesh
refined to habit motion
no trace of me is left

rituals kept in habit
religious in a mesh
remove residual memory
here love�s hubris ends.


� Amanda 2014
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koennte ich


k�nnte ich aus meiner haut
w�rde ich nicht soviel
zeit damit verbringen
alte wunden blutig zu kratzen
bis sie brennen und mich verschlingen
mit wulstigen narbenlippen
mein inneres verwachsen
und mir das herz umranken.


k�nnte ich aus meiner haut
w�re ich vielleicht in deiner


� anja millen 2014

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Japanese Archery

1.
The hand tells the bowstring:
Obey me.
The bowstring answers the hand:
Draw Valiantly.
The bowstring tells the arrow:
O arrow, fly.
The arrow answers the bowstring:
Speed my flight.
The arrow tells the target:
Be my light.
The target answers the arrow:
Love me.

2.
The target tells arrow, bowstring, hand and eye:
Ta twam asi.
Which means in a sacred tongue:
I am Thou.

3.
(Footnote of a Christian:
O Mother of God,
watch over the target, the bow, the arrow
and the archer).

by Aleksander Wat


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. temple .

The concrete is a recent pour and the structure itself open to the air. Warmer day than in several weeks and the rustle of the plastic protective wrap sounds loudly. *SNAP* *swish* *rustle* Sliding noises like snake skins on the ancient desert stone.

Light streams in from the liturgical east openings; histories, we carry our histories. Sitting in this proper place, my back against the steel form covered liquid aggregate, there is no frost or fog of breath. Eyes closed and head at rest I am somehow in this moment at peace. Mine is the only voice to pronounce this prayer for what is lost, my love's aleha ha-shalom.


� Amanda 2014

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Coming Down

I take as much as I can get
I don't take any regret
I close my eyes to conjure up something
But it's just a faint taste in my mouth

I think I'm coming down
I think I'm coming down

By tomorrow I'll be leaving
By tomorrow I'll gone
If you want to tell me something
You had better make it strong

Cause I think I'm coming down
I think I'm coming down
I think I'm coming down
I think I'm coming down

I think I'm coming down (Here I go)
I think I'm coming down (Here I go)
I think I'm coming down (Here I go)
I think I'm coming down
Here I go

There I go

You abuse the ones who love you
You abuse the ones who won't
If you ever had a real heart
I don't think you'd know where to start

Cause I think I'm coming down
I think I'm coming down
I think I'm coming down
Yeah, I think I'm coming down

Yes, I think I'm coming down
Yes, I think I'm coming down

� Dum Dum Girls 2011

. yes it's you, and it's true .




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Listless

sometimes people
shove a plethora
of sharpies
in my face
before the tv
set changes out
of its vintage
black-and-white
fashion
and they expect me
to doodle them
a rembrandt
from scratch

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Goodnight Moon

The battered sky blooms
as the dark teabag stain
under her weary eyes.
Like the couplet
strung around her necklace
and embedded
with teeth marks -
jewels impressed into
the vast expansive sky
of her laden shoulderbones.

The bruise darkens
and the stars seem impossible.
Too far away
and smiling a long dead smile.
But somewhere a pomegranate lip,
swollen with the disdain
that he made her swallow -
somewhere, those lips
find the courage to say
Goodnight.

by KathrynODriscoll � 2014
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.une liste pendant deux .


a scarlet flag
that flutters on a hill
we are thin when in our hunt
heavy grown in happiness
quand nous avons fait des un k1ll

white cotton gloves
purity, such a thrill
sun and shade, late spring's forest
your ashen face turned away
vous aviez atteint votre fill

satins, blue and white
his eyes were brighter still
negotiating weight not sight
later value all that would remain
beaut� seulement une arri�re-pens�e; spilled

summer sunlight
our beach so warm our water chill
smiles and sweetness on my mouth
our skin a worthless gold
l'instant o� nous avions ... tout.


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Untitled

Her eyes,
her nose,
her lips,
one and only
most beautiful
composition of
mother nature.

It's a shame,
such a shame
I can't afford
an art piece
so rare.

by iwouldneverlietoyou � 2014
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I read his words, encountered somewhat randomly, this morning ... I made comment ...

Amanda-Graham 7 hours ago Professional Writer

There is a motion that occurs, with love. A manner that the universe is felt to shape itself about us when apart, even for only moments; that eyes are upon us, tender watchful caring eyes of our other.

This sadness then, we write our hopes ... we tailor expressions of desire and hurt; our separation and our reasons, our experience and memories. There is this moment that occurs, in suffrage of new scars, when that catch in our throat and ghost-appendage beat of heart, suffers the shock of knowing that we are alone; solitary and unread by those with whom we once felt one.

Your English is impeccable; the expressions and terms of the work are well structured though I found a partial phrase a bit saccharine, perhaps a little out-dated or aloof ...

"one and only
most beautiful
composition of
mother nature."

It's a bit gentle I think; but perhaps my view is clouded by the manner in which my own adoration was terminated. I envy you the presence of mind that is indicated in your final stanza ... to not have clung so tightly ... perhaps more would yet remain.

Amanda

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. de la liste des trois .


Nikola Tesla hates pearls
His OCD round of threes pleased
The pearl was lost, it broke a tooth
My breasts within her grip

A fractioned false heart woke me cold
Whispered secrets, fold tight to slice
Concealed all that was to be prized
Origami dragon

We were two but more
Hidden others just below
Denial touches
Sounded funerals of spite
Those other pathways at night

Megan loved her threes
Met the other, trespassed heart
Crusader lover
Jerusalem afire
I held tight, my denial

Ghost of Mrs. Muir
Beside cold fogged shores
Abjured by what he had to spare
Seagulls choked in despair

A third was at the table
Brother, nephew or
That quiet unfair kept lover
A despair of meals shared.


� Amanda 2014


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Cryogenic Heart!

Love, so very cold
Cryogenic heart frozen
Temperature zero.


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Reasons not to be proud:


i.
Recovery from self destruction;
it�s time to hide your pain.
You should never have been so weak
to have started.
You should never have been so selfish
to have cut yourself.
Sweep it under the doormat,
Scuff your soles raw and bleeding,
Hang your head in shame,
And do no hurt again.

ii.
An effort not to waste away;
I was not sick today.
You have better than you deserve
for all your whining.
You eat an awful lot
for someone starving.
Flush it all away,
Scar your knuckles with acid teeth,
Hang your head in shame,
And do not purge again.

iii.
I tried for you;
to appear to be okay.
Because nobody wants
ill-minded offspring.
Because nobody wants
another failed talent.
Hide behind your mask,
Stitch it to your face,
Hang your head in shame,
And do not break again.

Pride is a deadly sin,
if you believe in what they say;
Unless society deems it worthy.


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drinking gasoline

oddly balanced between accessibility and abrasiveness
listening to jerky drumbeats,
to beat them to death,
while the sun burns our flesh
and all that's left to drink
is gasoline
can you hear the chanting?
does it grab your ear for a few minutes
is it sharp?
is it bitter?
does it wear out it's welcome after a while?
does it make you see things?
does it make you hear things?
is it the chanting or the gasoline?

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. this hated day .

There is sorrow ... far too much to convey ... overwhelming; until only anger and disappointment in myself and my failure to stay iron remain. Leaden moments drag me under ... drowning and gasping for air, for sky, for freedom ... from what I am become.

I remember happiness as though it were some sepia toned photograph that is found folded in a page book, ancient and uncared for enough that the printing papers are cracked and so faded that '... did she EVER smile? did she ever laugh like that? was there a moment when it might have been okay ...' echoes down the hallways of every fucking place I stand within, hidden.

Yes, there are people who seek to assuage; those that have known me long enough to know better than to even make that 'yet another' attempt. I touch them as best I can ... stretching fingers where uncared for, unclean nails, are cracked and split and cuticles are bleeding; the bits of skin wedged between my teeth.

"No wonder you don't have friends ..." said in her acid anger tones as a goodbye kiss; and not by her alone. "... varmint ..." said once as a gun was raised in yet another of a long series of sudden ambushes. WHY do I bother to survive any longer?

I hate this weak aspect side that has become a needy ... longing ... wanting ... exposed and vulnerable creature ... what HAPPENED to my anger and strength and 'fuck off betch' sharpened edges me? I cough and expectorate colorless masses of disgust at what I am become. Leaving messages on phone lines disconnected and account names blocked to me that never actually existed as I hallucinated them for ages ... fuck my drunken hope, fuck the chemically induced love, fuck the smoke of trust; there is only violence and myself to stand and flame.

There was yesterday ... the day of birth for yet another failure in shape and form of beloved. I didn't think of her then, no motion to rise and reach and dig out old photos ... she's been dead for almost a year and six months now; born and celebrated the day before this annual hated day. A torch carried for five years now; the one who made me Loom, the adored inception of Diana in my past. The one who caused my longest love the "varmint" spell to cast.

I need more art on my body, an end point to butterflies and deceptions created from falsified tenderness; I need death and destruction to decorate my parchment skin with the burning coals and ashes that are all of what remains. Scarify, brand, chop my hair; cut fine auguries into my thrust forward forehead where the stone of all these manipulative hearts met my need. This hated day.


� Amanda 2014

. baby's breath .




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. Retribution .

Though the mills of God grind slowly;
Yet they grind exceeding small;
Though with patience he stands waiting,
With exactness grinds he all.

Longfellow


. if i had a heart .




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. lista nr 23 pentru ziua de azi .

You said it repeatedly; so many times it lost it's power over me ... "I would die for you." For a time I tried to counter with "I will live for you instead" wanting you to see.

How much more weight then when, in ending, you roared that one half of what I'd given you, to save in hopes for futures, was far too much of me to ask. You had other lives to rescue.


� Amanda 2014

. waxen wings .




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. Davay zabudem leto .


Ty obnimay menya krepko.
Tak nikogo i nikogda ne obnimay.
Davay spoyem s toboy pro leto.
V nem net tebya,net menya - ne obvinyay.

Ty obnimay menya tak,chtoby kosti khrusteli.
Togda postav' otmetok na moyem tele na dele.
Ved' ty uyedesh' do Izrailya,no pomni
ot chuvstv ne ubezhat',dazhe yesli stelyat Dramma s Homie.
Beloye 'Polo', skvoz' tonirovku provozhayu vzglyadom.
V ruke bilety,sumki 'Lui' i shtampy v zagranke.
Nakruchivayu pro leto,bez tebya - eto pizdetski.
Tak tronut'sya po perepiske!Klinicheskiy servis.
Nam nuzhno vremya svyknut'sya,somknut' glaza i sdokhnut'.
Khotya tebe namnogo proshche,ved' ya lish' prokhozhiy.
Ocherednaya pulya,patron bez porokha.
YA progoryu v tvoikh glazakh.
Osech'ka,i snova po uglyam.
Postav' na pauzu etot den',nazhav repit.
YA povtoril by stol'ko raz,skol'ko on govorit:

Ty obnimay menya krepko.
Tak nikogo i nikogda ne obnimay.
Davay s toboy zabudem leto.
V nem net tebya,net menya - ne obvinyay.

Ty obnimay menya krepko.
Tak nikogo i nikogda ne obnimay.
Davay spoyem s toboy pro leto.
V nem net tebya,net menya - ne obvinyay

I netu bol'she minetov,kruzhavchekov na pampakh.
Avgust pustoy,kak avtobus na konechnoy stantsii.
Netu rychaniya tigritsy v iyule,v shelkakh.
Netu ''Nutelly''na vesnushkakh i tvoikh shchekakh.
Bol'no solntse vyzhigayet luchami.
Sledami na pustom uchastke serdtsa,suka,imenami.
Kayf ot boli - eto moy narkotik.
Yesli ty ne protiv,polozhim ikh v rotik.
Vspominay menya v svitare v katyshkakh
So stakanom kakao v sentyabr'skikh pavadkakh.
Pokopaysya v al'bomakh,ot nego zhe pakhnet seksom i kruzhit nashi golovy.
A kak zhe, ya zabyl tebya..a ya uzhe zabyl pro nashe leto tak mgnovenno.
I vse taki ya odin,a ty moy vrag.
Obnimi menya krepko,zay..i zasypay:

Ty obnimay menya krepko.
Kak nikogo i nikogda ne obnimay.
Davay s toboy zabudem leto.
V nem net tebya,net menya - ne obvinyay.

Ty obnimay menya krepko.
Tak nikogo i nikogda ne obnimay.
Davay spoyem s toboy pro leto.
V nem net tebya,net menya - ne obvinyay


. let's forget the summer .

You hold me tight .
So anyone and never hug .
Let's sing to you about the summer.
There is no you , no me - not blame .

You hold me so that bones crunching .
Then put the marks on my body , in fact .
After you go to Israel , but remember
feelings of no escape, even if Dramma stele with Homie.
White ' Polo ' , through the tinted watched the .
In his hand tickets bags ' Louis ' and stamps in zagranki .
I wind of summer, without you - it pizdetski .
So start by correspondence ! Clinical service.
We need time to get used to , close my eyes and die .
Although you much easier , because I only passer .
Another bullet cartridge without powder .
I burned up in your eyes.
Osechka and again over the coals .
Pause this day by clicking REPIT .
I would repeat as many times as he says:

You hold me tight .
So anyone and never hug .
Let's you and forget the summer.
There is no you , no me - not blame .

You hold me tight .
So anyone and never hug .
Let's sing to you about the summer.
There is no you , no me - do not blame

And no more blowjob , kruzhavchekov at Pampa .
August empty as the final bus station.
Nope growling tiger in July , in silks .
Nope '' Nutella '' and freckles on your cheeks .
Sun rays burns hurt .
Footprints on an empty part of the heart, female, names.
Pleasure from pain - it's my drug.
If you do not mind , put them in her mouth .
Remember me in svitare in spools
With a glass of cocoa in September pavadkah .
Delve into the albums from him smells like sex and turning our heads .
And how, I forgot you .. and I already forgot about our summer so instantly.
And yet I'm the one , and you're my enemy.
Hold me tight , Zai .. and go to sleep :

You hold me tight .
As anyone and never hug .
Let's you and forget the summer.
There is no you , no me - not blame .

You hold me tight .
So anyone and never hug .
Let's sing to you about the summer.
There is no you , no me - do not blame

� HOMIE (?)




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la m�moire de l�oubli

apr�s un certain temps
la m�moire
nous fait d�faut.

cela commence tout doucement -
les pourtours des souvenirs deviennent
moins nets ;
une esp�ce de brouillard adoucit
l�amer de la d�chirure, on y pense
avec nostalgie,
un peu comme on tapote distraitement
la t�te d�un enfant pour lui dire merci
... ce sentiment d�avoir d�j� su l�odeur d�une peau
et d�un rire en �cho ...

apr�s un certain temps
m�me la nostalgie
nous fait d�faut.

----English----

memory of forgetting

after a certain time
memory
fails us.

it starts softly -
the peripheries of memories become
less clear;
a kind of fog softens
bitter tear, you think
with nostalgia,
just as distractedly patting
the head of a ch1ld to say thank you
... That feeling of having already known the smell of skin
and laughter echoing ...

after a certain time
even nostalgia
fails us.

� Wordeaa 2014
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the Engineers Song -- author unknown
An engineer told me before he died
Ah-hum titty-bum titty-bum titty-bum
An engineer told me before he died
Ah-hum, ah-hum
An engineer told me before he died
I have no reason to think he lied
Ah-hum titty-bum titty-bum titty-bum
Ah-hum titty-bum titty-bum titty-bum
He had a wife with a cunt so wide
Ah-hum titty-bum titty-bum titty-bum
He had a wife with a cunt so wide
Ah-hum, ah-hum
He had a wife with a cunt so wide
That she could never be satisfied
Ah-hum titty-bum titty-bum titty-bum
Ah-hum titty-bum titty-bum titty-bum

So he built a bl00dy great wheel...
With two balls of brass and a prick of steel

The balls of brass he filled with cream...
And the whole bl00dy thing was powered by steam

He tied her down onto the bed...
And lashed her arms above her head

There she lay demanding a fuck...
He shook her hand and he wished her luck

Round and round went the bl00dy great wheel...
And in and out went the prick of steel

Up and up went the level of steam...
Down and down went the level of cream

Til at last the maiden cried...
Enough! Enough! I'm satisfied!

Now we come to the tragic bit...
There was no way of stopping it

She was split from ass to tit...
And the whole bl00dy room was covered in shit

It jumped off her and it jumped on him...
And then it went after his next of kin

It hopped onto an uptown bus...
It's coming to fuck the rest of us!

The last time that machine was seen...
It was in Buckingham Palace fucking the queen

The moral of this story is clear...
You just don't fuck with an engineer!
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. diabolique .

crocs reflets d�goulinant, les flux sont ralenties
mouvements sombres sur nos planchers de danse
elle a choisi la musique et le partenaire de l'instant
je d�place seul je suis l'arme je suis la pierre


. diabolic .

fangs glint dripping, flows are slowed
dark motions upon our dance floors
she chose the music and the partner of the moment
i move alone i am the weapon i am the stone


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